Wednesday, April 18, 2012

and you wanted to dance, so i asked you to dance, but fear was in your soul

I haven't figured out a way to gain access to maybeTen yet.  There are even more cops there now.

Tara or Penny would have had an idea.

I'm the dumb one.  Whenever they had meetings I'd just sort of listen and make jokes.  And now I'm the one who has to pick up the pieces.

If I was smarter, maybe I'd know what was going on.  I'd know what was in King's head.

The only thing I can think of is...maybe they weren't trapped?

I don't know where to go from there.  I don't have people to talk to about this.

I always thought I was taking care of Penny/Alison, after she lost her eyes.  Yeah, she's older, but she  needed help.  I never stopped to think that maybe she was looking after me.  That maybe she was the reason I survived all this as long as I did.

I miss her.  Mom and Dad liked to pretend she didn't exist, but I never did.

I wish I could find her.

Maybe getting to Ten will give me some answers.

More later after I do some brainstorming.


  1. You said you had a hoodie on when you shot "the thing with dead eyes that used to be a man". Did the cops get a good look at your face? If not and they don't have the woman's shelter refusing entrance to new woman it shouldn't be hard for you to get in at all. Just show up in different cloths with a story about an abusive boyfriend and you should be in.

  2. I don't think they did. It was dark. I'm not really sure, though.

    Couldn't have gotten that good a look, though. I don't feel good about going in unarmed, but I guess that's what the knife is for.